One Tear Drop from January 2007

One Tear Drop

My shoulders shake as I try to hold them up straight
My lip quivers as I walk away
I fake a smile, that has to be transparent
Can't you see the pain in my face
Hear it in my voice?
A dream is gone like the wind
It's breaking my heart into a million pieces
You said it yourself, you know.
I wanted so much more
One tear drop falls down my cheek
And inside the pain is flooding through my veins
Every breath is forced
One foot in front of the other
As I walk away, with
One tear drop falling down my face

from January 2007

Flood My Mind

Thoughts of you float through my head

Constantly pulsing through my veins

I feel like thoughts of you are my air

I blink and there you are

I can't concentrate, can't think clearly

Can't sleep at night, Can't function daily

It seems like forever I've felt this way

You didn't return the love

My mind races in confusion

Why didn't you tell me this till now?

How could you wait till a time like this?

You have no idea how my mind is overwhelmed

Love is one thing, being IN love is another

So many reasons it would never work,

Yet my heart argues.

Unhealthy obsession? Or Nature uncontrolled?

Peace of mind is all I seek.

Undying, Relentless, Unbridled Love.

I will not forget, but I have to breathe in and out.

Let my mind think more clearly.

Let peace and quiet come over me,

So I can see what I need to see.

Ever been scared to death that you would make the wrong decision? It makes me cry and hurt to think that I'll do something wrong and won't be able to repair the damage.