Ordinary Days

After the boys spent the day in Lufkin with Daddy, they came home. They had fun, which is good. But boy did I miss them! I enjoy my alone time, and I was super productive, but when they got here I just wanted to smother them in kisses and.hugs. Gavin said he missed me. :) And sat in my lap and just snuggled for a bit. Those are the greatest moments! He is very excited that tomorrow is a "stay at home" day. :) I am lovin this weekend! Did nothing at all but work online and listen to music videos ALL DAY LONG! Awesomeness. Now I'm still going at it, but need to go to bed because these little munchkins wake up early!

The first Saturday...

Well I'm at peace with the idea of getting a divorce.
I'm ok with knowing that what's done is done.
I'm confident that I tried all I could possibly try.
I'm sure I'm a strong enough Mom to do this alone.
I know now that he was not my forever husband.
I'm positive better things will come my way.

But I'm NOT sure WHY he did those things to me.
I'm not ok with the idea that Me and My Boys weren't enough for him.
I'm mad that so much time was wasted when I knew deep down.
I'm sad that the boys do not have the fulltime Dad I hoped for them to have.
And I'm not happy when I have to let the Boys go to His house while I just hope the bag I packed is enough for them.
I don't like kissing them goodbye. :(