Brief Lapse, November 2006

Eyes shut tight

Not helping

I can't help but feel you

As you go in and out

Slowly

Sensually

With each stroke I fill with warmth

Radiating from where we meet

to the end of each hand

to the end of each toe

I feel you with each stroke

My heart is pounding

Shut my eyes

I still can see you as if my eyes were open

Kissing me

Wall is down

I try to stop it

My heart is screaming

My soul is aching

I wanna grab your face

Make you see

Reach into your soul

Touch you where it counts

Tears roll down my cheeks

From my soul to your bed

I can no more stop it

Than stop the ocean waves

The feel of you inside me

Sending waves of pleasure

All through my body

Trembling

I feel you shaking over me

Hands together

Bodies together

Moving as one

You don't even see the tears

Or hear me choking back my feelings

I move faster over you

You moan over and over

I shudder with satisfaction

Can't stop it now

Heart is wide open for all to see

Tears streaming down

Lips quivering

Please don't notice

I can't let you see

Quick quick

Put the wall back up

Close down

Eyes wide open.

from November 2006

The Way It Feels

Since I was a little girl, I dreamt of you.

I've put my heart out there over and over again,

Just hoping to find you.

I longed for the touch, until I felt yours.

I waited for 'the kiss', till I was kissed by you.

I want to laugh with you and cry with you.

I want to Spend life playing with you.

I've been holding onto so much love,

Waiting till I found you to release it.

You make me smile just by crossing my mind

You melted the wall around my heart with one kiss

You make me never wanna let go.

This is what they call Head Over Heels.

The End of Nothing, NOvember 2006

The End of Nothing

Stupid

Selfish

Son of a bitch

Part time lover

Never a friend

Hate you

Never around

I won't call you

I don't need you

You don't care

No feelings

No heart

I definitely don't want you

Leave my life

You have nothing for me

Selfish

Bastard

Useless

Don't call me

I don't wanna make you smile again

Banned from my heart

Never lay eyes on you again

Forbidden

Stop Now

Soul-less fuck

Nothing you could give me

That I can't get elsewhere

The end of nothing

Constant Caring - November 2006

C onstant C aring

My heart pounding

I walk slowly

Doubting

I shouldn't have come

Excitement

I want too much

You

Smiling at me

Opening the door

Kissing me

Comfortable

Loving and Caring

Just being together

Laughing

Being goofy

Hands rubbing

Passion building

Bond Growing

Not on purpose

Tried to stop it

You don't want it

But you look at me

Like you want me

All of my mind and body

You pull at my soul

In your eyes

They defy what you say

Your actions speak much louder

Your hands on me

Speak to me

Say what I want you to say

Feel what I see in your eyes

Do it

Have strength

Faith in me

I'm not her

I promise

I believe in you

Us

Contentment

We move as one

We feel as one

Hold my hand

Take my heart

Breathe with me

Leap

I'll catch you

Friendship has grown

More is there

Trust in what you feel

OCtober 2006

I reach out to you

And I look into your eyes

I see something there

Something more than I expected to see

I don't think you see anything

I think you're blind

I want more than you can give

you are unable to reach me

I look into your eyes and I know

Without you is where I am most of the time

Despite how I feel

You are not enough

You leave me wanting more

But you walk away

You keep me hanging

But for what reason?

You have no reason

I look into your eyes

And see something that is not there

For some reason I keep answering

When you call

You aren't around near enough to make anything

So just leave the pieces of me and fucking go

I don't need your part time relationship.

The rhythm of life is moving me away

I won't wait around while you do whatever

Either care enough to find me

Or get away from me.

Despite how I feel

I have to protect my self.

I pretend like I don't care

I say I won't be mad if I don't see you

I say I have plenty of people to hang out with

But it just tells me so much

It says it's nothing to you

So no matter what I see when

I look into your eyes

Goodbye


and......

No regrets my dear
I love how you feel in my arms
Sweating with no regrets
Tossing me around like you own me
Kissing me like you really care
Touching me like you want more and more
Doing what we do best together
No regrets, No reservation.
Just unbridled, unreserved passion

from September 2006

Love Is.....

a peace of mind

a strong emotional connection

an unpredictable force

an unrivalled chemistry

a soul completion

an unconditional caring

having faith in someone

an irresistable urge to be with someone

the little things in a relationship

understanding and supportive

loyalty and unwavering honesty

finding complete comfort in someone's presence

making each other better just because they are together

something you can see in their eyes

adoration

knowing their thoughts by the look in their eyes.

from August 2006

Thinking Again......

You give me an inch and I want a mile
You give me a moment and I want a lifetime
You give me a teaspoon and I want the ocean
You give me a glimpse and I want the whole sunset
You give me a piece and I want the whole pie
You give me a sensation and I want it all
You give me one night and I want every night.
You give me a moment of peace and I want to always have that peace.
You give me a smile and I want to give that to you.

The Story, Part 2, August 2006

Story, Part 2

Here I go again, slipping into my little black skirt, getting all pretty for him. I told myself I wouldn't do it again, but I'm irresistably drawn. So here I go again. I hop in my car and feel the wind again. When I get there it's already dark, everything is quiet. I walk up and slip in the door. And without a word we just grab each other and kiss like it's been the long week that it has been. And with all the pent up frustration and sexual energy we just tear each others clothes off and fall to the floor. Kissing and touching and pulling and pushing, lips and tongues and hands. Rolling around like it's our last night on earth, like we can't get enough. And then we both just lay there, satisfied and content for the moment. And after a while, I stand up, slip my skirt back on, and then dressed and ready to go, I kiss him softly, one more time. And then I walk away.......

from July 2006

Lookin'

Peace of mind
feeling comfortable
holding hands
soft touches
knowing looks
contentment
understanding
long thoughtful talks
making the most of time
enjoying the beautiful clouds
dancing in the rain
long drives
making memories
finding something in each other
making smiles constant
giving life a purpose
romance
passionate kisses
unstoppable chemistry
needing each other

April 2006

Feelings should be.....

strong
spontaneous
make you tremble at the slightest touch
make you just grin from ear to ear
irresistable
breath taking
passionate
all- consuming