Ordinary Days

After the boys spent the day in Lufkin with Daddy, they came home. They had fun, which is good. But boy did I miss them! I enjoy my alone time, and I was super productive, but when they got here I just wanted to smother them in kisses and.hugs. Gavin said he missed me. :) And sat in my lap and just snuggled for a bit. Those are the greatest moments! He is very excited that tomorrow is a "stay at home" day. :) I am lovin this weekend! Did nothing at all but work online and listen to music videos ALL DAY LONG! Awesomeness. Now I'm still going at it, but need to go to bed because these little munchkins wake up early!

Uncle Kracker - Writing It Down (video) pop remix audio

The first Saturday...

Well I'm at peace with the idea of getting a divorce.
I'm ok with knowing that what's done is done.
I'm confident that I tried all I could possibly try.
I'm sure I'm a strong enough Mom to do this alone.
I know now that he was not my forever husband.
I'm positive better things will come my way.

But I'm NOT sure WHY he did those things to me.
I'm not ok with the idea that Me and My Boys weren't enough for him.
I'm mad that so much time was wasted when I knew deep down.
I'm sad that the boys do not have the fulltime Dad I hoped for them to have.
And I'm not happy when I have to let the Boys go to His house while I just hope the bag I packed is enough for them.
I don't like kissing them goodbye. :(

Happy Song...........

Deeper Question Time.....

Are you where you WANT to be at this stage in your life? Are you doing what you wanted to be doing? Do you have the things you hoped to have? Are you happy with your place in life?


I have to say Yes and No. I'm very proud and happy with where I've gotten in my life. With myself, with my kids, with my career, with the things I have. The only real thing I'd have to say No to is related to relationships. I have to admit I wish I were in my forever marriage with my best friend for life. But I also have to say I'm happy with myself and I'm not sad that I don't have it yet. My time will come. The "one" will come along at some point I'm sure and when he does, the wait will be well worth it. In the meantime, I'm more than happy with myself, my kids, my career, and all the growth and happiness I experience with all of these!

Another Chapter of Life Has Begun......

Well typical to life's pattern....life has changed yet again. I'm now playing the happy role of Single Mother to two Brilliantly Adorable and Funny Boys, Gavin and Jaxon. Gavin is almost 4 and Jaxon is just over 1 years old!

My whole life is work, kids and MYSELF. I'm taking time to learn more about myself. I'm pretty confident in who I am at this stage of my life and I'm confident in the things I aspire to do and get in my life.

Here is to another attempt at routine blogging!