Monday, May 21, 2007

Caught Myself Thinking- May 2007

Caught myself thinking
Might be lost in a moment
completely consumed
Where is my love song though?
Lost in a moment, but where are you?
I smile so you won't see
I laugh so you can't hear my heart beating so hard
I can't see clearly when you're around
You're the reason for the teardrops on my pillow
You can't tell, I can't breath when you smile at me
I keep wishing on stars, pennies, rainbows, anything
I'm looking for a reason not to leave
If you don't say whats on your mind
Give me a little more you
It's the little moments that count
Worry less and have more of these moments
I don't wanna spend my life waiting
So give me a reason to wait

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Words from early 2007

Words
Words can mean nothing
Or they can mean everything
Not hearing them can hurt us
Having to hear them can hurt us too
Certain words from certain people mean the world to us
Some words can shatter our world
Some words are misused frequently
Sometimes we use words lightly when they are big words
Sometimes we don't say the words we are feeling
Words can make you smile
Words can make you cry
Sometimes you can say words without speaking them
but sometimes you need to just say the words.

Monday, May 14, 2007

In My Dreams- Early 2007

In my dreams
Someone is there
To hold my hand
To give me hugs
To listen to me talk
To be supportive
To be open and honest
To kiss me in the morning
To walk beside me, not behind or in front of me
To say I love you when I need to hear it
To keep me sane
To make me go crazy at times :-)
To prove that there are good guys left
To laugh with
To share life with

Saturday, May 12, 2007

More from May 2007

It would make me smile.....


It would make me smile
To see your face everyday
To kiss your lips every night
To feel the heat of your body in my bed while I sleep
To reach out and hold your hand
To be able to understand each other without talking
To be the one who makes you laugh everyday
To give you a reason to smile each and every day
To make dinner together
To wrestle for the remote control on American Idol night
To sleep in late on Sunday mornings with you
To just sit beside each other reading good books
To go to Galveston for my first time with you
To have you check for 'bad guys' upstairs
To tell my deepest secrets to you
To be able to cry on your shoulder when something goes wrong
To be able to call you mine.
To know you know how much I love you.

Monday, May 7, 2007

Writings from May 2007

I Can't Think Of the Right Words to Say


Pulling at my heartstrings
You pull me one way
Then push me the other
You don't even realize
Or you don't even care
I would leap off anything
If you just asked
We made something together
But it will be mine alone
Forever I will be grateful for this gift
Unconditionally I love
Without expecting anything
But wanting everything
Dream big right?

Saturday, April 7, 2007

April 2007

Thinkin'


I've been thinking about you
Wondering where I stand
My heart is so full for you
Yet I keep it all inside
Locked away, saved for you
Hoping someday you'll want it
Hoping you will take me in your arms
Accept my love and love me back.
I'll keep that dream in my heart
Maybe someday I'll give up my dream
But for now my heart is too full

Friday, March 23, 2007

March 2007

Doesn't Matter


It doesn't matter what I do
Doesn't matter what I say
Doesn't matter how much I love
Doesn't matter that I care so much
Doesn't matter what I want
Doesn't matter that I'd give anything
I see that crystal clear
Tell me I'm wrong

Monday, March 19, 2007

Just from March 2007

Just


In general, human thought is interesting and so random at times. I wonder how sometimes people can think that there are endless supplies of things. Like friends. When you find a friend that you truly connect with, someone you can be friends with, don't let them go thinking there will be plenty of more, because there may not be. Like love. Do people truly think there are just plenty of people that can love them unconditionally and have a connection with? When you find love shouldn't you grab it and keep it so close to you and not let it go? There may never be another love like that. Trust me, I've thrown plenty away, mostly because it turned out not to be what I expected or wanted, but once or twice I have lost something special that I wish I hadn't lost because it has been almost impossible to find again. The more times my heart gets broken the more jaded I get. I get more and more picky and won't settle, which is actually making it harder and harder to find LOVE. I've always lived life thinking it won't last forever because it won't. You have to just give and give in order to receive, don't waste time thinking of all the bad stuff or the possibility that you are making a mistake, because life is full of mistakes and it's fine to make them, but you'll never know till you try.

Writings from March 2007

Soon


All I want is the wind in my hair
I wanna feel the cool ocean breeze
Feel the sand between my toes
Find peace and contentment
See the sunset on the water
Let my thoughts just float away
Get in the car and drive away
Into the night I will go
I'll hold your hand
And kiss your soft lips
Right on the shore
Like we are where we should be.

Monday, March 12, 2007

Satisfaction from Early 2007

Satisfaction


As I open the door
My heart already pounding
I wanna feel you
Grabbing me, Kissing me so passionately
Tear off your shirt
Kick off your shoes
Stay awhile
Pulling you to my bed
Peeling off the last of our clothes
frantic to be close
in your arms
Kiss me again
Make me Yours
Slide your finger into me
Kiss my neck
push me on the bed
Put your hand in my hair
Take me now
Don't wait
Feel with me
Oooooh baby
You know how I like it
Feel you deep inside me
Look into my eyes
See my soul, see my love
Touching me
My legs are shaking
Feeling you
Yes, Yes, with me now
As one, mmmmmmmm
Satisfaction
Kiss me once again
Soft and gentle this time
Touch my face
Can you see me?

from March 2007

Share


Share your secrets with me.
Share your heart
I know you're scared and unprepared
But just try
Please tell me I'm not the only one
Who is vulnerable
Share your dreams with me
Share your blankets with me
You're scared like me and that's ok
Just leap
I can see it in your eyes
Everytime I try to leave
Something keeps pulling me back
Telling me I need you in my life
Tears run down and cut through my heart
When I've done all I can do
It's up to you.

Early 2007 ramblings

IF


If I disappeared would it matter?
What if one day I didn't wake up?
Would you even care?
Would only one tear fall ?
Would your heart breaK?
Would you wish things had been different?
What if I slipped away into the night?
What if I gave up and went away?
Would it even phase you?
Would you lose any sleep?
What if I was gone for good?
Would it hurt?

Saturday, March 3, 2007

Something from March 2007

Something


No place I'd rather be
than here loving you.
Giving what you'll take
Taking what you'll give
Spoiled by your touch
Soaking you up
In your arms, feeling your lips
My heart could explode
I try to control it
Try to stop it
Brings tears to my eyes
I just wanna scream it out
Feel the passion building
Grab you and show you
Don't be scared
I'll protect your heart
Just take my hand
I'll show you LOVE.

Saturday, February 3, 2007

Missed You from February 2007

Missed You


I missed your touch
Your lips on mine
Make my heart melt
Your arms holding me
Just to see you smile
Lifts the clouds out of my life
I feel relief, comfort
Like I'm where I should be
I was starving for your heart
I just wanna be close to you
I wanna give you that reason you seek

Monday, January 8, 2007

One Tear Drop from January 2007

One Tear Drop


My shoulders shake as I try to hold them up straight
My lip quivers as I walk away
I fake a smile, that has to be transparent
Can't you see the pain in my face
Hear it in my voice?
A dream is gone like the wind
It's breaking my heart into a million pieces
You said it yourself, you know.
I wanted so much more
One tear drop falls down my cheek
And inside the pain is flooding through my veins
Every breath is forced
One foot in front of the other
As I walk away, with
One tear drop falling down my face

Monday, January 1, 2007

from January 2007

Flood My Mind


Thoughts of you float through my head
Constantly pulsing through my veins
I feel like thoughts of you are my air
I blink and there you are
I can't concentrate, can't think clearly
Can't sleep at night, Can't function daily
It seems like forever I've felt this way
You didn't return the love
My mind races in confusion
Why didn't you tell me this till now?
How could you wait till a time like this?
You have no idea how my mind is overwhelmed
Love is one thing, being IN love is another
So many reasons it would never work,
Yet my heart argues.
Unhealthy obsession? Or Nature uncontrolled?
Peace of mind is all I seek.
Undying, Relentless, Unbridled Love.
I will not forget, but I have to breathe in and out.
Let my mind think more clearly.
Let peace and quiet come over me,
So I can see what I need to see.
Ever been scared to death that you would make the wrong decision? It makes me cry and hurt to think that I'll do something wrong and won't be able to repair the damage.