Saturday, January 31, 2009

30 Things

I saw this on a blog and thought I'd do it for fun!

30 things about me

I/I'm...

P - Pretty Laid back
A - Animal lover
T - Text messaging fanatic!
R - Random is usually how I blog!
I - Introverted ! Majorly!
C - Compassionate when it comes to my patients
I - Intuitition helps me tell if I will like someone almost immediately. except guys of course LOL
A - a lover of music

M- Michelle Kincaide's best friend
I - in love with my husband
C- creating with paper is one of my favorite things to do
H-Happy to be a mommy to Gavin
E -Ethan's step mom!
L - Love reading books
L - Love the color RED!
E - extremely jealous person usually

C-called FREAKY by some of my best friends.
O-Overweight and I hate it, more than I ever have been by FAR!
O- One dedicated Director of Nurses at work
N-nurse, since 2001.
E- extremely addicted to the internet and my blackberry!
Y- yes, I'll admit it, I'm boring!

Thursday, January 29, 2009

I've been tagged!

Haven't been tagged in awhile so thought I'd do it!The Rules:1. Go to your Picture Folder on your computer or wherever you store your pictures.2. Go to the 6th Folder, then pick the 6th picture in that folder.3. Post that picture on your blog and the story that goes along with the picture.4. Tag 6 other people that you know or don’t know to do the same thing and leave a comment on their blog or an e-mail letting them know you chose them. So here is my picture:


This picture was in June 2008. Gavin loves looking out he front door!!










Okay, I am going to tag:






Saturday, January 24, 2009

Life is GOOOOOOOD.

Isn't it great when all the pieces fall into place in life? Let's start with work. I was very fortunate when this job fell into my lap. It was a big leap going from somewhere I was comfortable and knew people and it was an established company. I felt some kind of pull to come to this brand new company who had not even gotten licensed, certified, or accredited yet. For those who don't know anything about home healthcare, when you apply for a license now you have to not only pass Medicare survey but you have to get nationally accredited. We chose to go through Joint Commission. It's a long drawn out ordeal to go through. LOTS of studying. Well our surveyor came last week and we passed with flying colors!! They said things like "as near perfect as we've seen", "excellent", "very impressed with the staff, and the hard work your DON has done." And I'm the DON! HA! Awesome! She told my boss that he's very lucky to have me! Soooo we are super happy around here right now. I've got lots of money spending to do up here now! HEHE. Gonna be real busy around here for awhile. Marketing, getting new computer systems, training on computer systems, and hiring several new people.

Second of all, I've got great family and great friends! I've got the best friend I could ever ask for! We are getting to see each other more than we had for awhile there and it's great! Now If I can get her and her husband to go to vegas with us in a couple weeks things will be marvelous!! I need to get back into my scrapbooking again, I feel so much better when I do it often. Overall I've been very happy lately. It's kinda like I found my place in life and I LOVE it.

I've also come to a place in my marriage where I am happy. I feel like all our bad times are finally paying off. I feel like my trust is slowly building back up. We had split up for a few months and we wrote lists of all the things we both wanted from our marriage in order to try to make it work. We both looked over the lists and said YES I CAN do this or NO I CANNOT. Well we both said yes so we planned on him moving back in. He moved back in almost a week later. What not many people know is that in that week alone he broke EVERY SINGLE promise he had made on that list. I found out the day he moved back in that he had been trying to get some girl to the farm to sleep with him 2 days before he came home!!! He had 2 secret email addresses full of messages from multiple girls including all the ones from the last year of our relationship problems and several NEW girls. He had been talking to all of them on THESE accounts and secret myspace page since at least June. The horrible other part is that in June is when we had a long talk with his mom and he admitted a few things but not nearly all of them and promised he was going to stop and not do it. But it was a 100 X's worse from june until he moved back in in October. I mean texting a girl and calling her repeatedly after we made promises to each other and decided to move back in together, trying to hook up with her, is horrible. I cried a whole lot that week. But decided that if he was willing to try then we would. I told him that MY side of the list was out the window until he could earn trust back. I told him that I would be asking ALL the time where he is and what he's doing. That I would be checking phone bill and internet whenever I felt like it. I said if this is NOT OK with you, then do NOT come home. I told him this would for sure happen as long as it took to rebuild my trust. I told him he better give me a damn good reason everyday to stay with him. He promised. And for awhile it was trying. He was try but i was still hurting. Afterawhile, like early december I started really feeling a difference with him. I started thinking farther into our future and planning to be together forever again. I started remembering why i fell in love with him in the first place. I decided that even if we fought every once in awhile that it would still be OK. This weekend was rough for us. I think it's a cummulation of things. I think he is not exactly happy with all the success I'm having at work. We are supposed to go on a trip and it's to celebrate ME for work and Chris won't fly! Because of my colitis and stuff there is NO way I'm staying with strangers so I don't get to go if chris doesn't go. He is very angry this weekend and I'm guessing its a mix of both. Well now I decided fine, I'll drive with Chris there and just leave a day earlier than they fly out. 22 hours straight of driving is going to SUCK SUCK SUCK. But if Michelle and Kris get to go it will be a blast I think! So we had a rough weekend, and I'm going to write this in hopes that he didn't mean half the things he said yesterday. We shall see.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Public.

I am actually fairly smart. Or so everyone tells me. So when I post on my blog, guess what? I KNOW it is PUBLIC. I write things knowing that tons of people could and will read it. I post FOR myself, but with the KNOWLEDGE that people will read it. I read blogs too. I use Google Reader and subscribe to almost 200 blogs that I read when updated. It pops up automatically on my iGoogle page. I love that program! It helps me keep up with blogs without having to actually GO OUT AND SEEK the blogs, it comes to ME.

I have also gotten older. Yes, it's true, unfortunately. For some reason with time that happens. Strange. I've also thankfully gotten wiser. For instance, I know when I have a true real friend and when they are just a person who will fade out of my life in time. I know that everyone has those kinds of friends that come and go in life. There are friendships that are specifically there for a part of your life, for a reason. And when that reason is gone, so are they. That's life. I also know that there are certain people lucky enough to find a friend that is theirs for life. That will be there through thick and thin, ups and downs, good times and bad. They love you despite your faults and you love them despite theirs. You tell each other all your secrets and you laugh with each other and you make future lifelong plans with each other. I know people have to learn things the hard way sometimes, but eventually everyone will learn the lessons they are meant to learn. For instance, I've had multiple friends try to warn me on the relationship front about things they had been through, and as stubborn as I am, I never listen. Until it happens to me. THEN I'm like...OOOOH You were right! So knowing this, I try to let others see for themselves the things they need to see. And when someone needs to see someone for the childish bitch they are, they will eventually act like a childish bitch in front of that person and they will say... OOOOOH You were right, NOW I remember. I don't push people to see these things, they will see things in their own time.

The older I get I also realize the important things in life. My son. My Husband. My best Friend. My family. Some people don't put their children first, or their husband, or their friends, or even their family. They do whatever they want avoiding all responsibilities in life and neglecting things they should put their EVERYTHING into. Some people go around miserable(even if it is just on the inside)and hating life, and they try to take down everyone else in the world they get near. These are TOXIC people. They suck the life out of the people around them, they are selfish, and they don't give a damn about anyone but themselves, they use you when they need you and they come and go as they feel the need to pull you down with their hate for their job, their life, their family, EVERYTHING. I have had friends like this, so I know. I have purged this kind of people from my life. I'm in a good good place now. I'm happy with work. family. my son. my husband. my friendships. everything is good. And this is how I will continue. The people who know me really know me and know BS when they see it. That's all that matters to me.

Life. Thursdays.

Life is good. Real good.

I've got tons of pictures to post from this month, I'll have to do that when I'm home.

Me and Michelle went to see Bride Wars yesterday after I closed on my house refinance. It was such a great friendship movie. Me and Michelle decided WE have that kinda friendship! Lifelong. No matter what happens in our lives we are and always will be there for each other. We know each others deep dark secrets, the ones you can't tell anyone else. We want to be little old ladies scrapbooking in the assisted living facility between bingo and jazzercise! Our friendship doesn't come and go at convenient times. It is always there. We make sure no matter how busy life gets we see each other. And text each other everyday! It's not work to hang out together, we see each other on our Friday's, and whenever else we can squeeze it in! I am so glad we came up with our Fridays, it's a way for us to know no matter what we will at least see each other that time every week.

Me and Chris celebrate our first anniversary tomorrow! Amazing how time flies, yet it seems like we have been together forever. No matter what has happened in our relationship, I think it has only made it that much stronger. I know he really loves me with all his heart and I love him the same. I love our little family. Though I wanna make it bigger and he doesn't...lol. I want another baby and he doesn't want anymore children. We have definitely seen tough times, but without all this polish we never would have found the silver lining underneath. Here is to an UNeventful second year of marriage!

Gavin is growing so so fast! He loves his little MP3 player! He still loves his puppy blanket too! He loves pizza, cheese hot dogs, chicken nuggets, corny dogs, corn with spices not plain!, french toast waffles, mandarin oranges, bananas, peaches, carrots, Chris' special man stew (even though it's very spicy!), and loves pudding!

We spent last weekend relaxing at the farm and I'll post lots of pics of that soon. I love our weekends at the farm! Even if it was freezing cold! I love roasting marshmallows! Gavin had a blast too! Maggie LOVES it also! She ran through the woods like a wild animal! hehehe.

I can't wait for our work trip!! Vegas is getting more and more exciting! My boss and the owner are taking me and all our significant others to VEGAS!!! to celebrate passing our joint commission survey, as soon as it happens. I've never been so I'm even MORE excited than everyone else. Chris is scared of flying so I'm still trying to convince him to please go for MY sake and because this is not a chance that comes along everyday! I really really want him there with me to have this grand trip together.

I'm off to work a lil' !!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Copied from Someone's Blog

I frequent MANY blogs. On one of them, the writer has a post every wednesday called "WORSHIP WEDNESDAY". I will confess for awhile I just skipped over it if it was wednesday, but this week I read it. This is an EXACT COPY OF HER BLOG POST and a link to her blog. I'm changing not only the outside of my body this year, but the inside too.


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Song Title: “Our Hope Endures”
The story behind why I like this song:
Continuing with the theme of hope

Why do I like this song? Well, let me put it like this… You know how sometimes I like to bold the specific lines that speak to me in a special way? Yeah, well I could pretty much bold this entire song. It’s no secret… life is not easy or fair. We’ve all had our share (or perhaps more than our share!) of trials and hardships. But it’s okay. God has not promised that things will be easy. But he does promise he’ll be there. That hope endures through whatever we’re going through.

Take a look at these beautiful lyrics…Lyrics:
You would think only so much can go wrong.
Calamity only strikes once.
And you assume this one has suffered her share.
Life will be kinder from here.

Oh, but sometimes the sun stays hidden for years,
Sometimes the sky rains night after night.
When will it clear?

But our Hope endures the worst of conditions.
It’s more than our optimism.
Let the earth quake,
Our Hope is unchanged.

How do we comprehend peace within pain?
Or joy at a good man’s wake?
Walk a mile with the woman whose body is racked
With illness, oh how can she laugh?

Oh, ’cause sometimes the sun stays hidden for years,
Sometimes the sky rains night after night.
When will it clear?

But our Hope endures the worst of conditions.
It’s more than our optimism.
Let the earth quake,Our Hope is unchanged.

Emmanuel, God is with us,
El Shaddai, all sufficient.
We never walk alone,
And this is our hope.

Our Hope endures the worst of conditions.
It’s more than our optimism.
Let the earth quake,Our Hope is unchanged.
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Up until now......

I saw this on a girls blog and thought it would be cool to do! All of the BOLD ones I've done in my 28 years of life! :) You should all do it to and let me know so I can look!!

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland/world
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked (no but once a few of us picked UP a hitch hiker!)
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill (whoops...)
24. Built a snow fort (there is no snow in TX!!)
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run (LMAO, no)
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied (satisfied yes, want more? doesn't everyone?)
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted (drawn, but not painted)
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie (home movie! LOL)
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business (almost!!!)
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Gotten flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check (overdraft protected though!)
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt ( so it was only like 3 foot square LOL)
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job (yup but I was gonna quit anyway LOL)
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone (my upper jaw bone under my lip!)
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car (3 of them!)
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life (i'm a nurse so I've probably helped several times!!)
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous (ummmm Tad from All My Children!!)
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

January is flying by.....

Wow, I'm already sucking at one of my new years resolutions! Keeping up with my blog! I always mean to, but I seldom remember when I'm actual BY the computer to do it! However some of my other resolutions have actually been going well! I've been working out on my orbitrek or going for a walk EVERYDAY! I think since a few days before new years I've only missed 2 days!! I'm also eating much better. Not perfect yet, but better. I've been surfing many scrappy blogs getting inspiration, now I just have to APPLY IT! I'm closing on my house refi tomorrow, so I'm glad that's done and over with. I was told I can buy another house for twice as much as this house in addition to the one I have now! I plan to buy another one as soon as I save some money for down payment, and rent this house out. Won't be overnight, but I'll start the process! We are STILL waiting on joint commission surveyors to come certify our agency. Feels like the longest 6 months ever! Everything is squeaky clean and perfect around here and in my charts, now they just need to get here!! I still LOVE my job! :) I work with great people who actually respect me and care about me as a nurse and as a person. The owner is taking him, his girlfriend, my boss and his wife, and me and my husband on a paid for trip when we pass!! I'm soooo excited. They were kinda thinking mexico or florida keys, but I'm really wanting VEGAS! He said since I am the one passing this for us I get to pick!! And Vegas is the one I will be LEAST LIKELY to have to wear a bathing suit! LOL. ANyway I'm just excited for a paid for vacation!

Happy blogging!!