Brief Lapse, November 2006

Eyes shut tight

Not helping

I can't help but feel you

As you go in and out

Slowly

Sensually

With each stroke I fill with warmth

Radiating from where we meet

to the end of each hand

to the end of each toe

I feel you with each stroke

My heart is pounding

Shut my eyes

I still can see you as if my eyes were open

Kissing me

Wall is down

I try to stop it

My heart is screaming

My soul is aching

I wanna grab your face

Make you see

Reach into your soul

Touch you where it counts

Tears roll down my cheeks

From my soul to your bed

I can no more stop it

Than stop the ocean waves

The feel of you inside me

Sending waves of pleasure

All through my body

Trembling

I feel you shaking over me

Hands together

Bodies together

Moving as one

You don't even see the tears

Or hear me choking back my feelings

I move faster over you

You moan over and over

I shudder with satisfaction

Can't stop it now

Heart is wide open for all to see

Tears streaming down

Lips quivering

Please don't notice

I can't let you see

Quick quick

Put the wall back up

Close down

Eyes wide open.

from November 2006

The Way It Feels

Since I was a little girl, I dreamt of you.

I've put my heart out there over and over again,

Just hoping to find you.

I longed for the touch, until I felt yours.

I waited for 'the kiss', till I was kissed by you.

I want to laugh with you and cry with you.

I want to Spend life playing with you.

I've been holding onto so much love,

Waiting till I found you to release it.

You make me smile just by crossing my mind

You melted the wall around my heart with one kiss

You make me never wanna let go.

This is what they call Head Over Heels.

The End of Nothing, NOvember 2006

The End of Nothing

Stupid

Selfish

Son of a bitch

Part time lover

Never a friend

Hate you

Never around

I won't call you

I don't need you

You don't care

No feelings

No heart

I definitely don't want you

Leave my life

You have nothing for me

Selfish

Bastard

Useless

Don't call me

I don't wanna make you smile again

Banned from my heart

Never lay eyes on you again

Forbidden

Stop Now

Soul-less fuck

Nothing you could give me

That I can't get elsewhere

The end of nothing

Constant Caring - November 2006

C onstant C aring

My heart pounding

I walk slowly

Doubting

I shouldn't have come

Excitement

I want too much

You

Smiling at me

Opening the door

Kissing me

Comfortable

Loving and Caring

Just being together

Laughing

Being goofy

Hands rubbing

Passion building

Bond Growing

Not on purpose

Tried to stop it

You don't want it

But you look at me

Like you want me

All of my mind and body

You pull at my soul

In your eyes

They defy what you say

Your actions speak much louder

Your hands on me

Speak to me

Say what I want you to say

Feel what I see in your eyes

Do it

Have strength

Faith in me

I'm not her

I promise

I believe in you

Us

Contentment

We move as one

We feel as one

Hold my hand

Take my heart

Breathe with me

Leap

I'll catch you

Friendship has grown

More is there

Trust in what you feel