“The heart has its reason which reason does not know.”

“Who is also aware of the tremendous risk involved in faith – when he nevertheless makes the leap of faith – this [is] subjectivity … at its height.” – Søren Kierkegaard (1813 – 1855)
In a memorable scene from Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade, Indy deduced that the final step across his treacherous path was a leap of faith. And so it is in Kierkegaard’s [wiki] theory of stages of life.
The final stage, the religious stage, requires passionate, subjective belief rather than objective proof, in the paradoxical and the absurd. So, what’s the absurd? That which Christianity asks us to accept as true, that God became man born of a virgin, suffered, died and was resurrected.
Abraham was the ultimate “knight of faith” according to Kierkegaard. Without doubt there is no faith, and so in a state of “fear and trembling” Abraham was willing to break the universal moral law against murder by agreeing to kill his own son, Isaac. God rewarded Abraham’s faith by providing a ram in place of Isaac for the sacrifice. Faith has its rewards, but it isn’t rational. It’s beyond reason. As Blaise Pascal said, “The heart has its reason which reason does not know.”

Ol' Socrates

“The unexamined life is not worth living” – Socrates (470-399 BCE)
Socrates’ [wiki] belief that we must reflect upon the life we live was partly inspired by the famous phrase inscribed at the shrine of the oracle at Delphi, “Know thyself.” The key to finding value in the prophecies of the oracle was self-knowledge, not a decoder ring.
Socrates felt so passionately about the value of self-examination that he closely examined not only his own beliefs and values but those of others as well. More precisely, through his relentless questioning, he forced people to examine their own beliefs. He saw the citizens of his beloved Athens sleepwalking through life, living only for money, power, and fame, so he became famous trying to help them.

Descartes Quote

“I think therefore I am” – René Descartes (1596 – 1650)
Descartes [wiki] began his philosophy by doubting everything in order to figure out what he could know with absolute certainty. Although he could be wrong about what he was thinking, that he was thinking was undeniable. Upon the recognition that “I think,” Descartes concluded that “I am.”
On the heels of believing in himself, Descartes asked, What am I? His answer: a thinking thing (res cogitans) as opposed to a physical thing extended in three-dimensional space (res extensa). So, based on this line, Descartes knew he existed, though he wasn’t sure if he had a body. It’s a philosophical cliff-hanger; you’ll have to read Meditations to find out how it ends.

Another Great Quote Explained

“We live in the best of all possible worlds.” – Gottfried Wilhelm Leibniz (1646 – 1716)
Voltaire’s famous novel Candide satirizes this optimistic view. And looking around you right now you may wonder how anyone could actually believe it. But Leibniz [wiki] believed that before creation God contemplated every possible way the universe could be and chose to create the one in which we live because it’s the best.
The principle of sufficient reason holds that for everything, there must be sufficient reason why it exists. And according to Leibniz the only sufficient reason for the world we live in is that God created it as the best possible universe. God could have created a universe in which no one ever did wrong, in which there was no human evil, but that would require humans to be deprived of the gift of free wills and thus would not be the best possible world.

One of the Most Important Quotes With an Interesting Explanation

“To be is to be perceived (Esse est percipi).” Or, “If a tree falls in the forest and no one is there to hear it, does it make a sound?” – Bishop George Berkeley (1685 – 1753)
As an idealist, Berkeley [wiki] believed that nothing is real but minds and their ideas. Ideas do not exist independently of minds. Through a complicated and flawed line of reasoning he concluded that “to be is to be perceived.” Something exists only if someone has the idea of it.
Though he never put the question in the exact words of the famous quotation, Berkeley would say that if a tree fell in the forest and there was no one (not even a squirrel) there to hear it, not only would it not make a sound, but there would be no tree.
The good news is, according to Berkeley, that the mind of God always perceives everything. So the tree will always make a sound, and there’s no need to worry about blipping out of existence if you fall asleep in a room by yourself.

Civilization?

Do you ever think about the fact that we, as in the human race, are advancing faster than we should or in the wrong directions?

I used to be quite addicted to a computer game called Civilization. This was one of the first versions of the game. It starts out with your “character” being the sole person standing where you can only see a tiny portion of the screen. You walk around exploring, learning different “skills” such as writing, harvesting, philosophy, iron work, etc., all the way up to like rocket science. You build cities, gain people, gain territory, and take over other cities. You try to take over the world basically. Well the game always ended with me thinking about the fact that if you grow too fast or in the wrong direction you will basically self-implode your civilization. I always wonder if we, in the real world, are growing too rapidly. Growing in the wrong areas? Focusing on the wrong thing? What if it ends up like a bad futuristic movie where people that are normal are hiding from the POWER trippers? What if Dallas and Tyler grow so large that they run into each other and we have no more “Country”? Anyway, my mind stays in overdrive so I’m quite shocked that it hasn’t imploded.

Demi Lovato - Skyscraper - YouTube

Demi Lovato - Skyscraper - YouTube

Ink Me

I got my fifth tattoo today. :) It's Live Laugh Love with a heart on my wrist. :) Crystal has to draw me a few more so I can get even more! I've got the ideas rolling through my head! I need one bigger one on my upper back that is going to represent my boys. How they are EVERYTHING to me, the sun in my cloudy life, the beautiful tree built from my roots, they are my world and I want a tattoo that SHOWS that! And the other tattoo I want next is a coverup for the one I hate on my ankle! I have NO idea what to get on that one! But I'm sure we can think of something! I LOVE tattoo's, especially really really good ones! Meaningful ones are the best!

Anyhow, I've been doing alot of thinking lately.....I'm very unique! I hope that someday someone see's that and scoops me up. But they will have to be very worthy! I'm weird and boring and funny and love to laugh. But I love to relax too! And I love tattoo's obviously. I don't drink hardly at all, not a clubber, not a partier, Just a good ol' girl I guess. Don't get me wrong, I've got spunk and fire in my soul, but I'm sweet as pie too! I love to shop at Office Depot as much as I love to get Tattoo's or see live music! hahahaa! A good balance of such would be splendid to find in a man!!  Anyway, enough rambling, my brain can't stop tonight......

Quote of the Day

"If you want to be happy, set a goal that



commands your thoughts, liberates your


energy, and inspires your hopes."


- Andrew Carnegie

Ordinary Days

After the boys spent the day in Lufkin with Daddy, they came home. They had fun, which is good. But boy did I miss them! I enjoy my alone time, and I was super productive, but when they got here I just wanted to smother them in kisses and.hugs. Gavin said he missed me. :) And sat in my lap and just snuggled for a bit. Those are the greatest moments! He is very excited that tomorrow is a "stay at home" day. :) I am lovin this weekend! Did nothing at all but work online and listen to music videos ALL DAY LONG! Awesomeness. Now I'm still going at it, but need to go to bed because these little munchkins wake up early!

Uncle Kracker - Writing It Down (video) pop remix audio

The first Saturday...

Well I'm at peace with the idea of getting a divorce.
I'm ok with knowing that what's done is done.
I'm confident that I tried all I could possibly try.
I'm sure I'm a strong enough Mom to do this alone.
I know now that he was not my forever husband.
I'm positive better things will come my way.

But I'm NOT sure WHY he did those things to me.
I'm not ok with the idea that Me and My Boys weren't enough for him.
I'm mad that so much time was wasted when I knew deep down.
I'm sad that the boys do not have the fulltime Dad I hoped for them to have.
And I'm not happy when I have to let the Boys go to His house while I just hope the bag I packed is enough for them.
I don't like kissing them goodbye. :(

Happy Song...........

Deeper Question Time.....

Are you where you WANT to be at this stage in your life? Are you doing what you wanted to be doing? Do you have the things you hoped to have? Are you happy with your place in life?


I have to say Yes and No. I'm very proud and happy with where I've gotten in my life. With myself, with my kids, with my career, with the things I have. The only real thing I'd have to say No to is related to relationships. I have to admit I wish I were in my forever marriage with my best friend for life. But I also have to say I'm happy with myself and I'm not sad that I don't have it yet. My time will come. The "one" will come along at some point I'm sure and when he does, the wait will be well worth it. In the meantime, I'm more than happy with myself, my kids, my career, and all the growth and happiness I experience with all of these!

Another Chapter of Life Has Begun......

Well typical to life's pattern....life has changed yet again. I'm now playing the happy role of Single Mother to two Brilliantly Adorable and Funny Boys, Gavin and Jaxon. Gavin is almost 4 and Jaxon is just over 1 years old!

My whole life is work, kids and MYSELF. I'm taking time to learn more about myself. I'm pretty confident in who I am at this stage of my life and I'm confident in the things I aspire to do and get in my life.

Here is to another attempt at routine blogging!