Like petals in the wind...

Today is gone, like petals in the wind, just flew on by! Busy busy but not bad. Pretty productive. Living on the cheerful positive side. Nice neighborhood ;-).

Lots of home projects on my mind. I wanna get my comforter recovered, couch recovered, new curtains too! I just feel fresh n shiny n new and wanna make everything reflect that!!

Let your light shine through me onto everyone in my life!

I love TobyMac and Matthew West! Geez I'd love for them to both be in concert together at the House of Blues or Nokia theater!

Busy Week

This has been a busy two days at work. But very productive. I like feeling accomplished and on a good roll. I like clearing my desk off and marking things off my list! Next week I start another quarterly report! Fun!!

Jaxon is growing way too fast. Wearing some 6-9 mth clothes and he is only 3 1/2 mths old! He is a big coo'er!! He smiles so much. On week days he sleeps almost all evening and all night except one quick feeding around 3-4:30 am.

Our morning routines are getting easier. At least when Chris helps they work good. The older I get the more I realize I THRIVE on routines.

Also addicted to post-it notes ha ha ha.

Jaxon seems to be teething early. He gnaws on his hand ALOT and gets fussy and loves to chew on my fingers! I've tried to feed him cereal with a spoon but he pushes it all out with tongue or gets choked on it.

Jaxon has bad reflux. They also think he has laryngomalacia. I'll discuss at later date more!

Gavin is growing into such a sweet young man!! He knows his yes ma'am, no ma'am, sorry, yes sir, no sir, thank you's real well. He has normal tantrums too like any kid. Some important things about Gavin right now:
* loves his Mickey mouse and puppy blanket still
* he loves fish sticks, chicken, spagetti, macaroni and cheese, chips, peanut butter and fluff sandwiches, French fries, pizza, instant breakfast w muffins, donut holes, ketchup, Salisbury steaks(snake) lots of things!!
* he LOVES watching movies, especially on his lil DVD player that he calls dbd player :-).
* he loves cars movie and toy story and shrek the most.
* he has slept in his own big full size bed for like 2 yrs now.
* he is not really afraid of anything in particular
* he loves gum and cupcakes and ice cream.
* he loves to have mommy read him stories and loves for mommy to sing him songs
* he can kind of sing itsy bitsy spider, wheels on the bus, 5 little monkeys, and you are my sunshine.
* his best friend at school is still Hunter, since infant class! He also says Layla is his girlfriend.
* he is having a Very hard time potty training. :-(
* he loves helping in the kitchen w cooking or dishes

I'm sure I'll think of more later......

Church.

Hi God. It's been great feeling you around lately.

Today I went to church with Michelle K. We are both trying to straighten our walk right now and it's awesome to share that with each other! I'm in love with alot of Matthew West songs! I love Something to Say and To Me alot!! I may have walked in the wrong direction for almost a decade now, but God forgives me, so I have to let the guilt go.

I pray everyday that God will shine through me onto Chris. So he can see and believe what he sees.

I want my boys to grow up loving God and knowing no matter what he us there for them just like I am.

Today's sermon was about clearing our innate conscience. If God has been asked to forgive our sins, then he has done his part, now we have to let it go and move forward.

Saturday Night

Went to eat yummy dinner at Applebees with my dad and sister. Then we hit Orange Leaf for delicious frozen yogurt! Gavin really enjoyed it! Then we came home to play in the yard for a little bit. I love when the weather starts to slowly cool off! Niiiiiice! Now inside to watch a movie together. Love my family time.

Nasty Boys!

Gavin did the most disgusting thing ever this morning!!

I thought he was being a sweet boy, laying on the couch watching his movie, letting mommy sleep in a few minutes. So I woke up at 8:45, went in the lving room and he was sitting on couch snuggled up watching his movie! I knew he would have pooped in his pullup but I was still willing to do that for a little extra sleep! I laid him down to change him and there was poop down his legs. Gross. Put him through shower and then relaxed for a couple hrs.

THEN he came over to me and shoved his new pointer finger toy thing in my face and said "ewww smells like poopy". Sure enough it was covered in poop. I said WHY is it covered in poop. He said "I painted!!!" ohmygosh!! I said "what?!" he said "my cars!" i said "show me right now!" and he took me to dining room and showed me how he had painted poop all over his little tykes ride on car!!! Gross!!! So I went to wash it and wand in the tub and he came up to me. I said is there anymore poop you'd like to show me "yes" where? "table" sooo he took me to show me how he painted the legs and underside of the kitchen table!!!

Absolutely nasty!!

I had to shower myself after!!

New Leaf

It's been a really really long time since I blogged. I used to love it. I'm gonna try to start up again with this handy dandy blog app on my phone!

I'm not about to try to catch up on years worth of stuff so I'll just give some big highlights so future blogs will make sense!

Gavin just turned 3 yrs old this month! He is so big and sweet! He is very funny! We are very stubbornly working on potty training still. VERY difficult with him.

In June I gave birth to my second son, Jaxon Chandler. He spent the first two HORRIBLE weeks of his life in NICU for breathing problems. He came home for the first time on June 30. He is surprisingly the happiest baby EVER. Laughs all the time.

Chris, my husband, left and spent my whole pregnancy gone. We were going to truly get a divorce. Until the day jaxon was born. It changed everything. Now we are together since that day and working through our problems. Just yesterday I finally came to the decision to truly forgive him for so much and to really give our marriage this one last chance.

Gavin is Growing.

He is growing so fast!

Words he can say:
- Baby
- Bye Bye
- Night Night (niiii niiiii)
- Car (caaaaa)
- Ball (baaaaa)
- teee teee (when the dog needs to go out!)
- Dada (all the damn time)
- Momma (sometimes)

He never says anything on a regular basis, just occassionally.

He also knows where his belly button is and tells/shows everyone when asked :).

Tonight I discovered that he also knows where his nose is!!! I said "where is your belly button, and he lifted his shirt and pointed to it, then I said "where is your nose?" and he pointed to it!!!! He is soooo smart! heheheheheh

He is staying up a little later too!

He gets in trouble at school for hitting. He rolls his eyes too, very very deliberately!

Being a mom is so awesome, hard and exciting all at the same time! The only real hard parts are wanting to sleep in sometimes when I can't because he wants to wake up earlY! And temper tantrums for no reason whatsoever!! Plus the constant fear of him hurting himself, choking, falling, etc!

Jeeeeeez!

Why can't I blog as much as I used to? Why don't I just MAKE the time? Why doesn't what I write sound as good as it used to?? WHatever....here goes another blog. Just cause.

Let's see.....since my last blog, alot of nothing has happened really. LOL. No, really life is busy, but nothing major! Mostly my time is spent working all day and then spending all evening with my son and my hubby. Gavin does such cute things! He loves to dance! He likes any type of music, even the general hospital theme song! He dances to anything with any kinda beat. He is getting more cuddly, which I LOVE. He is getting more little boy like, and less baby like everyday! He has the most precious giggle ever and he is super ticklish! He still loves bath time! His favorite foods are peaches, mandarin oranges, cheesy hotdogs, chicken, corny dogs, cinnamon toast waffles, and blueberries! He also loves anything that me or daddy is eating! LOL. He has stopped liking to eat breakfast, but he loves to drink carnation instant breakfast so that's the only way he gets his morning nutrition! He is acting better at school lately. He gets injured alot there though. lol they say it's how toddlers are. He is also now tall enough to run smack into the tailgate. LOL. Poor guy has done it twice now. He loves DIRT and outside very very much! He climbs the stairs to bed at night. He loves his puppy blanket even more these days. He also loves his dancing singing rockin' dog. He loves to ride his horsey and play his MP3 player with his headphones on. He hasn't gotten anymore new teeth lately. He loves his real life doggy, Maggie very much, he pets her so soft and gentle until he gets excited and then he practically choke hugs her, but she doesn't mind or react badly. She just sits there and accepts that he is a toddler and doesn't know better. She loves her human LOL. Gavin loves LENKA. LOL. And PINK! Such a smart boy! He still isn't really talking but he is babbling more. SOMETIMES he will say "bye bye", "Nigh Nigh", or "teee teee", and I've heard that he can say "ball" but I've never heard it. THe others he says when and if he wants to, not that often. :(. I'm sure on his 18 month appt next week they will consider sending him to Speech Therapist but I just don't know. Lots of people tell me it's normal and not to worry, but I still do. Oh and he also likes kisses and hugs alot!!!

Work is great. Busy but great. Lots of things to do to get us big and productive as quick as possible. I can't wait to hire more staff so I won't have like 10 jobs to do myself!!

This weekend me, michelle, amanda, kristi and angela went to Bossier City. It was SUPER fun. We stayed friday night at a hotel and we gambled and drank and were merry! LOL It was a blast. I'll post pics soon, but I already did put them on my facebook page. We also got a bunch of Mchelle's baby shower planned, now I gotta get busy with the games and favors!!

We got a new bigger flat screen TV which I love! And a new entertainment center to put it on! Plus we got our new king size mattress and it is sooooo big and soft! We have SO much more room though we still both sleep in the same spot LOL. And we have this new loveseat with dual recliners in it that I can't wait to get in! It's great cause it has a center console thing to hold the remotes so Gavin won't destroy them!! Heheheheh

I had so much more to write but my mind is drawing a blank......Chris says it's time for bed...LOL So Goodnight!

....Wow.

I can't believe it's going to be March tomorrow! This year is flying by! Actually the older I get, the quicker time flies by! And the horrible thing is I'm just 28! I'm trying to enjoy more in life instead of worrying so much or just planning future things.

I need to scrapbook again. I've only done one page since August!!!! It disgusts me. Especially knowing how much money I've spent on scrapbook stuff. And it's sitting in the room. Growing dust. I've just been so super busy the last few months. But hopefully things will calm down enough to give me time to do it again. I miss it greatly. It's my stress reliever! The only creative things I've done since August were all my Stampin' Up classes and stuff. Better little than none.

This week was super busy so I was glad for it to end! Just sooooo much work to do and I still have this horrible cough and just get tired easy. Flu lasts forever. :(. Last night was mine and Michelle's Friday night "date" night lol. We went to eat at Julians which we loooooove, then we went to see Confessions of a Shopaholic. It was a great chic movie! I wish we had more time together :(. We had a little bit of a talk waiting for the movie about things going on recently, and she totally reassured me that we are best friends like no other! lol. She gets my point of view on things I think, and that's a start!

Today I got to spend some time with Michelle again! We went glasses shopping together, then I went to lunch with her and her family. Her mom and dad always make me feel like family too! They even insist on buying my lunch usually! They are great parents that she has! Then we went to Michelle's 4D ultrasound! WHat little we could see of Victoria she is sooooo adorable! She has an adorable nose! But she was hiding behind the placenta so she is having a redo in a few days! Can't wait to see more! Today I spent most of my tax return! lol. I got an eye exam, new glasses, new sunglasses too. We also bought a new mattress set and loveseat that has recliners on both sides with a center console thingy in it. LOVE IT! Sucks but the mattress will be delivered thursday, an the loveseat was back ordered so it won't be in until probably the 11th. We also went and bought a big ol' 40" flat screen TV since ours has bad sound that's going out now. Tomorrow we will get an entertainment center and set it up! We also realllllly need to get groceries!

I can't wait till this coming friday night! We are going to Bossier City! Michelle wanted a girls night and sooooo that's what we are doing! Amanda and her bff Angela are going too! I can't wait. For one night, it will be super nice!

Gavin is adorable lately! He says "BYE" and is so cute when he does! He also blows kisses! hehehe cute boy!

R E C O V E R Y

I'm trying hard to recover. I'm back to work today and worn out already! The drive makes me sleepier, and I'm pretty much stuck in my chair. I was supposed to join my boss at this bbq in Mt. Enterprise for the doctors out there but I am too dizzy to drive the extra way. It's gonna be hard enough in like 2 hours when I have to figure out how to leave and go see a patient. But that's a must. Her BP is up. Anyhooow, I'm just trying to play catchup with everything they left for me while I was gone. Funny thing is, none of them are here. Wesley and Heather are in Mt. Enterprise, and Kelli was seeing patients then going to oral surgeon with her daughter then home to do paperwork. So I'm here. Alone. Have been since 10:45. Hate being alone up here sometimes. Michelle wants us to go for a girls night out in Bossier City the weekend of March 7. I'm not sure yet since I did just spend 9 days without Gavin. Chris will be at farm that weekend so I would have to get my mom to watch Gavin. It would only be one night, but still not sure she'll be ready to do it again yet! LOL

F L U

I think the flu is purgatory on the way to hell. Since Tuesday evening I started feeling like poo. Wednesday I called in sick and went to urgent care because it was even worse. F L U. Yuck! I knew I shoulda got that damn vaccination! Anyway, I've felt like I was gonna die. I haven't felt that bad in like a decade or longer! I couldn't move, couldn't breath well, coughing up a lung, all my muscles ached so bad, couldn't eat without throwing up, pounding headaches, fever and chills. My boss made me go to work THursday morning. I got there somehow, really not sure how seeing as I'm also dizzy. After almost 2 hours of laying on my desk and everyone griping at him, he let me go home. It's all kinda blurry, can't believe I made it to and from work and lived through it. Anyway the rest of the last few days since Wednesday has been mostly sleeping and sweating out fevers. Coughing so hard my throat is sore and I've even been throwing up blood. I'm just now starting to feel like I might live through it. Worst part of it all is I only saw Gavin twice during this time. Since I was contagious :(. And Chris has the flu too, so Gavin stayed at my mom's. I really really miss him and keep crying about how much I miss him. He is coming home today though! Hopefully we will live thru it!

Las Vegas Baaabbbyyyy!

Las Vegas was very very fun! It was also very very tiring! I think we walked like 10 miles the first two days! The last two days we walked ALOT less LOL. We tried to see EVERYTHING but didn't quite do it. I can't wait to go back again with my best friend!! We left on Friday and stayed at this really nice hotel in Dallas, the Radisson. It had a sleep number bed LOL and a bar in the lobby! I know, easily pleased. We got up VERY VERY early Saturday morning. 4:45am!! Got to the airport and flew out at 7:15. Chris got very nervous but did very well! You could barely tell he was nervous! We landed at 8:15. We splurged and got a limo from the airport to the hotel! First time I'd ever ridden in one! Couldn't check into hotel yet so we checked our baggage at the bell boys desk and hit the road! We ate breakfast and walked and walked and walked. That first night we went to see the Cirque du Soleil show called Zumanity. It's the "Sensual" side of cirque du soleil. It was GREAT!!! We got the tickets free but I sooooo would have paid to see that. It's amazing. Couldn't take pictures though :(. One of my fave things we did was horse race betting! I won a couple times by picking the underdog horse that stood no chance and I bet $2 for that horse to win !! And guess what?! TWICE the underdog I chose won!! Once I got $68 dollars! And the next one I got $54! It was sooooo fuN! We also saw a topless vampire show called Bite. LOL It was cool, but way over rehearsed. Me and Chris also got tickets to walk through the Bodies exhibit. It was real human bodies cut up to show all the body systems, organs, etc. It was over priced but fun! Here are a bunch of pictures!

This is under the awning when you pull up at the Encore Hotel. VERY Nice hotel. It's in my top 3 choices for next time!!! There are butterflys everywhere! and RED!!!!

FOr more pictures visit my facebook page!

I suck!

I have been really really busy! That's my only excuse for not posting in like 2 weeks!! Last weeekend was fun! Me and Michelle went to Outback and shopping friday night which was fun and heartbreaking at the same time ! LOL. Spent lots of money. I had found THE cute dress for Vegas. But when I got home Chris didn't like it!! It was a $110 dress that I got for like $30 and he didn't like it! Grrrr. Soooo Saturday me and my mom shopped for over 4 hours!! It was fun and I got LOTS of things on serious sales! Now I'm trying to pack it all and I'm having a hard time getting it all to fit in my suitcase! lol. ANyway.....we are leaving today to drive to Dallas to stay the night. Then BRIGHT and early we are flying to Vegas!! I'm not taking my computer so the only info you'll get is on my facebook or text messages!!! :). We won't land back in Dallas tuesday night until 10:55 pm ! So You won't hear from me again until like Wednesday! I'm soooo excited I've never been anywhere like that! My tax return which was my spending money for the trip did not deposit today as expected! I was having a heart attack! But my ultra nice boss just transferred me $1000 from his acct to mine! :). Vegas here we come!!!

Sunday Drive

The boys are soooo cute together. Gavin has gotten to where he LOVES holding Ethan's hand! So in the car if Gavin is upset Ethan reaches over and holds his hand and he calms right down. It's sooo adorable. Gavin really looks up to his big brother and thinks he is amazing!

This is just silly cute! LOL. We got this sink plunger and all thru walmart Chris was making it suction to his belly and to Gavin's. So when we got home Gav kept wanting it to suck to his belly. LOL Weirdo's.

30 Things

I saw this on a blog and thought I'd do it for fun!

30 things about me

I/I'm...

P - Pretty Laid back
A - Animal lover
T - Text messaging fanatic!
R - Random is usually how I blog!
I - Introverted ! Majorly!
C - Compassionate when it comes to my patients
I - Intuitition helps me tell if I will like someone almost immediately. except guys of course LOL
A - a lover of music

M- Michelle Kincaide's best friend
I - in love with my husband
C- creating with paper is one of my favorite things to do
H-Happy to be a mommy to Gavin
E -Ethan's step mom!
L - Love reading books
L - Love the color RED!
E - extremely jealous person usually

C-called FREAKY by some of my best friends.
O-Overweight and I hate it, more than I ever have been by FAR!
O- One dedicated Director of Nurses at work
N-nurse, since 2001.
E- extremely addicted to the internet and my blackberry!
Y- yes, I'll admit it, I'm boring!